Good Evening Everyone,

Started June 1
Well,  D and I got home from working on the old trailer.  We are in the process of painting and doing some light repairs.  I know everyone has asked why we are fixing and painting, long story short, my attorney felt it was somewhat necessary to elevate any problems with the moron owner, and we felt that since we had lived there, it needed to be fixed.  Some people came by this afternoon, looking at several trailers that are now empty in the park, and they stopped by our trailer, and asked if it was available, and I told them yes, and we showed them what we were doing.  They liked the trailer and went back to speak with the morons, but I do not know if they got it or not.  I paid another half month's rent so we could finish by the 15th of this month.  We just cannot move and do things like we used to, and at the end of the day, between working at the old place and running after my parents, I am beat, and tired. Update: Carpet will be laid on Tuesday, the 11th.  I will send keys to the morons on Wednesday by certified letter and be done with it.

I am not sure of my parents situation at the moment.  My Dad is supposed to be released June 10th back home.  I have to go and see our local Area on the Aging, to see if I can locate someone who comes in and does light cooking duties, like I used to do.  I just cannot do any cooking and handling the demands that they want and need.  I will have Home Health come in with a nurse to check on Dad, I will just have to see how this goes.  They are just so very demanding of my time, and I am in a position that I cannot stretch myself anymore with my life and theirs.  They have become so very clingy now, and they are ill-tempered between themselves, Mom is ok on some days, but yesterday, she had a melt down on me and said that she did not want Dad, home, and that she was not going to live like that.  She has to have these meltdowns on me when I am exhausted and tired, and then I become ill tempered and the fight is on.  I just cannot get answers, or help, and I am not feeling well.  I am hoping that when we get done with the trailer, things will be better since we will not be running around all the time.  I do know that I will have to set boundary lines up, as if not, I will be spending my whole summer, and my life, running for them. Update:  Since the trailer is done and we are done moving, things have calmed down somewhat.

The weather here has been weird.  I still do not have my garden in.  Its been very chilly at night here, and I just have not had time either.  I am going to try to set in my plants Sunday, and cover them with greenhouse plastic, and hope for the best.  I have tried to start cucumbers and lost some due to the chilly air.  I have a heat mat, but they fall over and die after a few days.  The area nurseries we have around here have had nothing left for the garden season.  It was picked over because of the weather and there is nothing left but crap, which I just will not buy.  I have not even looked at plants for color for the house.  I guess I am just not in the mood, because of everything that has been going on, too much stress and little time to enjoy anything.   I am planning on taking Sunday off from working at the trailer to go grocery shopping and look for some ornamental plants for some pots here at my house, and maybe a few for the folks, and that's about it.  I do not have time to go and water their yard and my yard at the same time. Update- I just put in some of my garden tomatoes and peppers Monday night.  Really late isn't it?  I am going to cover them with greenhouse plastic for a while until this weather gets out of its bi-polar mood.  Its worse than my mother's mood! I am afraid that this years garden will be nothing great or perfect.  My raised garden bed is 13 feet by 16.5 feet. We have to go and get chicken wire fencing to keep the rabbits out or that will be gone too.

I have been trying to read every one's blogs to keep up with all of you.  I miss blogging, which is one of my stress breakers.  I have been getting back into the habit of having my tea or coffee in the morning and visiting all of you and see what is going on in your world.  It sure helps me to break the stress, it really does.

June 5th.
Well, I'm still trying to put a post together.  It was a little calmer today, I took my mom to my hairdresser, to get her hair done.  I thought I would have a meltdown with her, as she got out of the car and then balked going in. My hairdresser is very kind and came out and talked to mom and coaxed her in, telling her she needed her hair done, and was gentle with her and we finally got her in.. She is getting house bound and is difficult to take out.  When we got done, I drove her out to the new house, and she just did not know where we were at, and did not know much of anything.  Very sad.

I am hoping to go shopping sometime this week, I need to get a new USB cable,  I cannot find my old one.  I have a reader suggest plugging in with something else, but I have a cheap camera and I cannot do that with this el cheapo.  I am hoping that I will get a better camera this fall.  Maybe.....

The trees we transplanted from the old trailer to the new house are doing well, except the ornamental pear, unfortunately, when we dug it up, some of the roots were cut, and it is struggling to snap out of its shock.  D got some liquid hormone and B-12 stuff that you mix in water.  I am giving this to the tree twice a week.  It is very concentrated stuff.  One tiny bottle about 1 oz makes 100 gallons.  It has really helps everything else.  My grape vine my neighbor gave me is snapping out of its shock, and my raspberry bushes are coming out as well.  The tree will be touch and go, and as I have said, I would rather it die here than at the moron's park as no one would take care of it anyway.  The nursery told us that it will be droopy most of the summer, and we'll have to see next spring how it has done.

Well, its 12:38 am here on Saturday morning.  I cannot sleep, and a small thunderstorm is coming in from the west.  Its lightening and thundering a little.  I have problems sleeping here yet.  I am just not used to the house or the area.  Its so quiet here and its spooky around here at night,  very little lights around except for yard lights from some of the homes.  I am very cautious when I have to let the dog out, as we have the typical night creatures roaming around.  We have a den of skunks in the pasture behind us, and as long as they do not get too close, we will be ok, but if they get close or have a sick one in the bunch, it will be gone.  We are having an early rabies season here, so I am just watching and hoping we do not have an encounter.

Well,  I had better get back to bed, or stay up and read a little, and then see if I can get back to sleep.  I have be so tired, that I cannot sleep.  It will get better, I hope soon.
I wish everyone a wonderful weekend, and take care.

Love and Hugs

Morning in the New Neighborhood

Good Morning Everyone,

Thursday, May 16th.

Well, I am at the computer in my sewing room/office this morning, where I look out over the pasture.  It is cloudy this morning, even had a tiny rain shower move over for a few minutes, just enough to make the sidewalks wet and as it heats up, will make the humidity go up today, and make some thunderstorms bloom up this afternoon.

We are still moving small stuff.  I have had some issues with my parents come up that required me to stop and take care of.  My Dad had a tiny stroke Friday night and he was released back into the care center Tuesday.  He has tiny strokes that have been explained to me as strokes going nowhere.  They hit, cause temporary paralysis for a few hours and then show no damage on MRI's.  I also am going to have my attorney on Friday, go and have them sign over for Power of Attorney, so I can take care of and handle both of their affairs.  My parents have not set anything up for me which makes me angry and has left them and me in a bad position.  I have been after them for several years to take care of things, but they never would.  Now, its time to pay the fiddler and things are in a state of chaos.  I am navigating the Social Services paperwork and the people you work with are humiliating and degrading.  I have already tangled with one woman who talked down to me as if I was a child and I blew her butt.  I told her I was not one of her druggie, clients who does not know what is going on. She just was not sure how to handle this as she told me she has never been talked to like that before, and I told her, "well, its about time you were".  I told her she lives in a sugar-coated world of the government and knows nothing of the outside world or how it works.  She backed off and that was the end of the conversation.  I am having the care center where my dad is, help me to submit paperwork on Friday because of her, so I do not have to put up with her insults.

I hired someone to mow and trim the folk's yard.  I just cannot handle two households, including lawns.  It is getting better as we are not running as much, but it will be better, once we are done moving, and then finishing the old trailer and painting and re-carpeting the place.  We just get very tired in the late afternoon, and we are not young anymore to do what we used to do.  It will get done though, and will be finished.

About a week and a half ago, we had tragedy at my folk's home with several of their kitties.  This broke my heart, but we found out that they had a rouge possum, a very large male kill two of their kitties.  This creature literally shredded their bodies and ate them.  I knew raccoons did this, but had never encounter a possum doing this, but I do remember that they get into chickens.   When we found the beautiful kitty they had by the garage, we knew we had a rouge something lurking around.  So I set my traps and the next morning caught the murderous possum.   We then loaded up this rouge and took it out and shot it.  It had developed the taste of pets and needed to be destroyed and it was.  Come to find out, the stupid neighbors next to my parents were feeding them as they thought they were cute, I blew their butts out and told them to never feed wild creatures as this is what happens.  They have a two year old and I told them that this big possum would of went after their kid, as it was sick and developed a no-fear toward people.  They are stupid young kids who are in the druggie world and just did not think that wild animals do such things.  Real smart, arent' they.

I will try to post photos but at the moment, I cannot find my USB cable.  Its in a box somewhere, (sound familiar), and when I do, I will post some photos.
Right at the moment, I cannot think of anything else. I will re post later.

Monday, May 20.

Its been raining since Saturday afternoon.  We had some rough thunderstorms roll through, some places around us got very large hail at over 2 inches in diameter.  I am glad we didn't get that, but the air was very chilly so you knew we had hailstorms around.  It dropped the temps quite a bit and it was in the 50's. The wind blew around 60 mph and then later in the night, we had several more storms roll through and the lightening is pretty close and sharp.  I was up and could not sleep, the animals were nervous about the storms and being in a new place, it makes me not sure and uneasy.

Where we are at now, its dark, as we do not have much street lighting.  The front has street lights but the back is pure country, with the open pasture and so when I take the dog out at night, I have a flash light and I don't stay out too long.  I know we have critters, its just you do not know where the critters are at. Funny thing  is, we had critters where we did live also, so its not different, but its just more dark out here than I am used to.  We are going to put up our motion detector lights up soon, and it will make it a little better.

I could not sleep, so I am working on this post.  It is currently raining again.  I mowed the grass in the front Sunday afternoon, but my city grass cart was totally full when I finished, so I have to get another grass cart for the back.  Bummer.  The yard we have is large and with the rain we have been getting, its growing, This year, not much is going to get done.  I would like another raised garden bed, but that is not in the plans this year.  I would like to put in some dwarf fruit trees, but again, not this year.
Its supposed to rain most of this week, so we are hoping to get what we can moved and work at the old place and get it ready.  We have a plumbing problem that has come up so that needs to be fixed.  My attorney that is handling the moron owner is going to request an extension and I will pay extra for the extension.  We have come across a few things that need to be taken care of, so I guess if moron wants his trailer rent ready, he'll have to put up with the extension.

I still cannot find my USB cable, its in a  box and I am still searching.  I have a few photos I would like to post. I hate this when you move and everything is in boxes, even though you mark the boxes of contents, you still cannot find anything.  I got my china buffet put back together, with all of the contents, and did not break anything, which shocked me.  I am now in the process of washing things, towels, linens, and putting everything away.  I have good linens that I need to wash, and iron and put away, but that will be later.

We got NetFlix added to the TV.  Generally I am not a TV fan, but I enjoy movies, westerns, and the action adventure movies, so we got that, and I do enjoy it.  Its our entertainment and we do not go out so its been nice.  Lately, I have been unable to sit down and watch any TV period, with all that has been going on.  Just a few days ago, I got to the nursery's to get garden plants, which, by the was was pretty poor pickings, but I did get some things. Again, this year is going to be a year of unpredictable things going on, so I am not planning much of anything.

Well, its about 3:30 am on Monday, and I had better get a little sleep.  I will try to post more as I have time this week.

Hugs to All

A new view in a new home

Good Morning Everyone,

Well....I am currently in my new home, in my sewing/office room, having a cup of tea, looking through the window toward the southwest, out across an open field with the birds and the air filled with song, and to me, even though its just a pasture, its a grand, soul healing sight. One of my cats is on top of my computer desk, watching and waiting for a bird to fly into the window which they are flying a little more erratic around here than at my old  home, because there is more airspace around here, but its wonderful.  The air is filled with birdsong, with many birds I do not get to see in town much, red-winged Blackbirds, and field birds like Meadow Larks, and small birds that I need to dig out my bird book to identify.  Its the bird song I love, and it is truly soul healing to me.

I have more to move from the old place, its small stuff, shelves,  clothing, and lamps, etc,  and then we'll go back and clean, paint, and lay the carpet down.  We can only do so much each day, as I get so tired, between running loads from place to place, check on my parents, have a break or two, and then a few more loads and then quit for the day.  It is getting a little easier, but it will be like this until the end of the month.

I will get some photos, and do more posting as I can.  I just got the computer and phone up Friday, and got everything set up so its working, hopefully. (I won't be too loud when I say that).
I will also have to change my blog's wording too.  Where I am at is not a slum, but paradise.
Have a wonderful week.

Hugs and Love

Computer and Blogger issues

Good Evening Everyone,

I am not even going to apologise to everyone as I think everyone knows why I have been MIA for a while.  Between trying to move, and trying to take care of my parents, and take care of everyday life in general, and then throw in a glitch with blogger after I had my computer worked on after it crashed and my tech cleaned it out and finally figuring out what was wrong, it had something to do with the cookies with blogger and finally this morning, I figured it out.  I have been so tired and unable to think, that I just had to go to bed, rest and then early this morning, I got it figured out and I am back on board with Blogger.

My Dad got sick on us Monday night, and I had to place him  back in the hospital.  He has been not behaving, and not doing his nebulizer treatments, and has been difficult to try to feed and cook for. At first, he was great and was doing really good, but then, about a week or so ago, he started on being a stinker, which the doctor thinks it is from the stroke.   So, I had to make the decision to place him back into the care center, from the hospital,  where he may or may not try to get well and quit being a shit.  He was getting too hard for my mom to handle, and she is also hard to handle, so I did not need two shits making a big shit, so to speak, so between the doctor, the case manager at the hospital, they placed him, so I would not be on his radar and take his anger out on me.  We all agreed that he need more care and just placed the ball in his court and that was it.  I will see how he does, and just take it each and every day.  My mom is somewhat easier to handle now, since she does not have to put up with his child-like antics, she has her days, but she is easy to do meals for and is happy, as she still can do embroidered quilts, which she is working on and it keeps her busy.  I am amazed that with some of her mental capabilities, she can still sew her quilt tops, and the stitching is perfect, but with other things, she is a ding-bat, but I love her and my dad and I will just be thankful for each day I have,  perfect or not and another day to have the strength and  fight and be glad.

In all of this, I am slowly moving things.  The weather has been a mixed bag of snow, cold, rain, icy, and hot.  Over the weekend, we got the appliances moved, and a few things,  and then we stop and take breaks, as we are not young and cannot move like we used to.The weather doesn't help.  It has been so blasted cold and it is impossible to move things when you have several inches of snow on the ground.   The house is coming together, I am still in a daze as to the blessing of finding a nice home, and everything that we need.  I have no need for anything else in my life but my gardens, and a nice, comfortable home to be able to live in after taking care of my parents during the day.  This home is my respite, and my sanity and I will enjoy every bit of it, each and every day.

I will try to get back on track and do posts about my experiences with the health care system that I have been dealing with.  I will try to work on this in the next month or so.  Tomorrow, the computer will be down as I am moving it out to the new house and cable will be out there early tomorrow morning so I will start to get that set up.  I will hopefully be up and running soon.

I am starting to feel somewhat better.  I went to my massage therapist, and has a session with her, and she started me on several  herbal supplements  and a natural relaxer and I have found that it has helped me greatly.  I will post about this when I see that it is truly helping me and I will pass this on to all of you.  The stress that I have been under, I would not wish upon anyone, but when I put out my hand and asked for help, it has been there, from  many people, who has offered whatever they could, so I could keep my sanity.  I think that I have mentioned before, I have no friends here.  I have not met like-minded people that I could share things with, but when I started navigating the health care area, and being introduced to the people who work behind the scenes, helping people steer into the right directions when handling life changing decisions.  Through this, I have had some of my faith restored  in man, through these wonderful, people, who have been placed in my life to make decisions not by myself. I have been blessed many times, even though going through the stress was not pleasant and sometimes it has been too much, but it has been smoothing out and the road not so rocky.

I have to catch up on everyone's blogs.  I have not been able to do so, so I will try to do that and this will help me to relax and enjoy everyone and their going's on.
I just also want to again, thank all of you for your messages of hope, blessings, love, good karma, and prayers.  I know that you all care, and at night, I ask for blessings, prayers, karma and good thoughts for all of you.  This world is tough and is getting tougher, and we need more love and care in the world,  I feel so blessed to know all of you, from around the world, I am truly so thankful for all of you.  I love the sharing, caring that goes on here, and through all of you, I am getting my strength back to handle the next day. 

Well,  like FlowerLady says, "its time to get horizontal", and that is what I am going to do.  I generally read for a while and then I sleep better.  I have been sleeping almost a full 12 hours, and sometimes I catch a little half hour nap, and then I am off and running.  I am getting better as I do not need to sleep as much the last few days, I am sure its from the supplements and suggestions from my massage therapist.  She is a peach too.

Well,  I will try to get back online in a few days, hopefully without any glitches, and I wish everyone a wonderful upcoming weekend, and full of gardening, and just general enjoyment of life.

Hugs and Love to All

Most Humble Apoligies

Good Morning Everyone,

I must first say that I am so very sorry for being so MIA for a while.  It has been so very stressful with my parents, and other life issues going on that I just have not even turned on the computer except for some banking issues.  This has been a learning experience and it has been something that I will not wish on anyone.
I will try to post toward the weekend. I said that I was going to post on my dad's illness and the experiences with the health care system, which I will tell you that its not good and will not get better.  It is Obamacare and its bad for everyone.  It is a joke, and a smoke and mirrors set up, so head's up with this.  Also, some GOOD news,  my dad is home, and is doing good for the shape he was in.  This will be a part of my post also, getting him home from the nursing home with the Obamacare crap that I had to go through.  My dad had a health set back, a bad bacterial infection from the nursing home that almost killed him, and the terrible care he received from two  care centers,  boy, care center, what an oxy-moron that is.
Dad has several health issues along with the stroke, but we will cross each one as we can and when he gets stronger, until then, its a daily deal. My mother is dealing with early onset dementia, and she is very difficult to deal with now.  She lives in her own little bubble complete with imaginary things, but I just roll my eyes and just play along, as if you confront her with her little world, she blows and is very hard to handle.  I have home health come in to check on my Dad, but they are not real happy about that either, but I have to until I can get Dad better and he is able to function better.  He really is doing so much better than he was, he has to re-learn some things, and learn to work his limbs better, but he thinks clear, somewhat, he does have issues with remembering the days, as he lost about two months, but he is getting up, and is trying to be able to make breakfast for himself so I can have a break.  I stop in during the morning to make sure he takes his med's, and I bring in lunch or dinner before evening, so I can have a peaceful evening and rest as I need this time to myself.

Also, on my end, D and I found a very nice home, and in all of this turmoil, we closed and have been moving things as we can, the weather here is crappy, snow, cold, ice and what ever else can come up, but we managed with all of the turmoil to do this also.  I did not want to say anything, as we were not sure that everything would go through and I did not want my hopes to get too high along with everything else.
I also am still dealing with the moron who owns the park, my attorney is handling that issue and is keeping the peace with this.  I do not have time to fight.

At this point in time, I am just numb with everything.  I should be so happy and elated with the home, but I'm not. I have had so much stress, and decisions, that I am just numb.I am being drug from my household duties and then I have to do my parents household duties also, so my time is pulled from all sides.   My Dad wants to see the house, but I am so very leery to show my Mom, as her mental state is not good, and she may go native on me, and hate me even more than she does now.  She has issues with me doing things in the house now, and moving things and interfering with her house.  I am now the "hated" daughter as I have been told will or would happen, and there is not much I can do about it. I will have to think about this with some thought.
I will post more on moving, at this moment, I am just moving household things, dishes, and small stuff, and I am going through everything and tossing what I do not want, and making a pile for donations to the thrift shops.  Before we actually closed, we brought in a dumpster and threw away a ton and a half of crap and stuff that was not needed.  Most of this was outside stuff that I just did not need and to be honest, I am just not sure where it came from.  But it  is gone now, and it is a relief.
This home is very close to the city limits, but I am still in the community, and in a very nice, quiet neighborhood.  I have a garden area, a raised bed about 14 x 14.  It is a start.  I have a nice yard, and room for some dwarf fruit trees eventually.  The yard is nice and the back yard has a patio area, and much potential, and is along a large 20 acre pasture, so at the moment, I do not have anyone in the back except this pasture.  Eventually, homes will be built, but until then, its nice, and has birds, and most important, quiet.

So, I just wanted to jump in and let you all know that I am still here, some days, I do not want to wake up, or be here.  Some days, I do not want to face the unknown temperament of my parents, or their demands.  I am not sure of the future, if I will even have a life, or be able to enjoy my home at all.  Everything is just in the air at the moment, and very unknown.
I also want to thank Flowerlady for emailing me and checking on me.  I love you my friend, and concerns, I am hanging in there, and I will try to get off an email to you later this weekend.  This is what angers me, as I cannot get to my life and do what I want to do now, I have no  time for me, so I will just try to touch base with everyone through this blog and emails until things hopefully calm down.

Until later, I wish everyone a wonderful up coming weekend, get lots done, enjoy the weather, if you have nice weather, and just enjoy your life, as you never know what the day will bring.

Love and Hugs to All

Shocking New Obamacare Costs Just Released

Shocking New Obamacare Costs Just Released

The Wheel keeps revolving.....

Good Morning Everyone,

I had a few moments to post to let everyone know I am still wheeling around and very stressed.  My dad had a very serious set-back Thursday morning when I went in mid-morning to check on him.  He was very feverish, very sluggish, and not with it.  He told me he did not feel good at all.  So, I, aka "Hellcat" as my dad calls me when I become the explosive temperament I carry, went in and demanded that an appointment be made with my parents doctor to be seen.  I had to fight, but I won, and at 4 pm, dad and I were in at the doctor's office and then his doctor seen him and immediately had him shipped to our hospital ER and then the very close call we had started....

He was having problems breathing.  Now, dad is an old smoker, but quit many years ago, but he was for many years, a fireman on our local fire department, and battled blazes when there was no equipment like the firefighters have now.  He also was a Navy aircraft crash crew member and cleaned up and fought aircraft crash fires, also the same way, with very little equipment and his lungs are seered from the high heat. By the time I got him admitted into ER, the RN's were all over him, and got him fluids, and a CPAP to  help his breathing, by 8:30 pm, he was in distress with his breathing, and there for a while, I was sure that I was going to lose him.  The ER doctors told me if the care center waited until Friday morning to get him to the doctor, I would not have him here. They gave me hugs and patted me on the back to be his champion to get him here when he needed help.   He had a very quick moving pneumonia, from flu going around the care center, and it hit him very badly as he has compromised lungs. The team in ER was able to stabilize him, and he was moved into ICU where he is now.  I went yesterday and last night and he looked so much better, and was doing better and breathing better. He is so compromised because of the stroke and he also is not doing well at the care center where he is now, he hates the food there as it is bad, (I have eaten with dad there and I agree), he is not eating well and he hates the PT woman that they have there, as she is a bitch with a very abrasive temperment for being a PT at a care center.  I am now having issues with this care facility and am looking to see if I can move him to another.  I am not sure if I can, but I will be on top of things when he is released back, and I will be the hell cat that I am to see that he gets care and rehab.

So I have been running, and in the mean time, checking on my mom, and running errands, and just being stressed more.  I do not see this stopping for a long time at the moment.
D helps as he can, he was going to look into taking a part time job driving, but now, it looks like I need him home here more.  We will just have to play it by ear for now.

As I have mentioned I will try to compose a post about the experiences I have had.  I am also going to compose a post about the care center issue which I think everyone needs to be aware of also.  At the moment, I am too tired, stressed and will not be able to post correctly without emotion, and I want to inject a fair and non judgmental post.  I do want people to be aware of things and what needs to be checked and done for the sake of loved ones in someone else's care and what the rules and issues are.  So I will do this when I can take on this post with fairness, and insight to be fair to all.

I will now get ready to go and get some things done before I head back to ICU for my dad, and I will post later when I can, and keep all posted.

Thank you for all of your support, love, blessings, thoughts and karma, as it means the world to me and my family.  Thank you.

Hugs