I have some very, very sad news to bring to this blog. Friday afternoon, I had to very peacefully put my beloved ICU kitten, Ya-Ya to sleep.
She had developed problems Thursday, and by Friday, I knew we were in distress. I took her in to her vet and she x-rayed her and her colon had torn in several places, and the vet told me she was quite sure it was a combination of a heavy worm infestation, and a congenital defect from Ya-Ya being a preemie baby and not having mom kitty's milk. We just couldn't fix a problem that was there and I felt so helpless and heart broken.
So, I lovingly told her goodbye, and let her go over the Rainbow bridge and in no more pain and a new body for her to enjoy. It was one of the most difficult endings that I have had to deal with in quite a few years of taking care of ill pets.
These are things that I have dealt with for years, but for a tiny kitten, who really didn't have a chance, I gave her 6 weeks of care, love, and hope for a better life. I just wish I could of done better for her.
I am so very heart broken, and tears drip on my keyboard, and on my shirt as I write this. She was so very special, and a gentle soul. I am going through the emotions that all humans go through, the anger at myself, the anger at the previous owner and anger at my God, and anger at life itself. Only time will heal me, and I know that deep in my heart I did absolutely the most I could with my hands that God gave me with the ability to heal. I feel so very blessed to of had her in my life, and that she had a few weeks of hope and peace. But all my attempts to heal were not enough for her. I am missing her so very much.
So, hopefully I will get back to my blogging, and some of the recipes that I have promised all of you. I want to also tell all of you who read my blog a big Thank you, and for all of your contact and just being here in cyber-blog land. I feel that if I didn't have all of you, I would probably be in the loony bin. I so enjoy all of your blogs, and I enjoy reading what everyone is doing in their lives. I enjoy the simple lifestyle that we follow, and the slow down that we strive to enjoy. This is the reason that I have no friends here, I follow a different path, and to these people, I am total freak, a moron, who probably should be in the loony bin. I don't party, I don't shop, I don't drink and run around being a bar fly, so I am the freak. Oh Well........
Anyway, I will get my recipes posted, and I will get back on to a normal blog posting if life doesn't get in the way. I have some ideas and will try to get it organized better and maybe if I can master it, a better layout on the blog.
Anyway, I didn't want to present sad news about Ya-Ya, but I had many get wells for her and concerns and hope sent to her and me, and I felt that it should be shared, even though it is sad and heartbreaking.
So, I will embark on new things and a better tomorrow for all. Have a peaceful and wonderful weekend.