add on to what is going on this week.

Good Morning  Everyone,

Well, we are now into the pretty cold air of the season now.  During the night the panhandle of Nebraska got a winter storm and quite a bit of snow as well as Wyoming, Colorado, somewhere around 8-12 inches.   Tis the season here and I am sure its here to stay for a while.
It is supposed to warm up again in the 50's and 60's here by the weekend.

I want to take the time to apologise for the rant yesterday.  But for some reason, this really bothered me and I will tell you, it has really pissed my community off and probably not for the good.  At least for people like me who live in trailers or modulars.
The city is now declaring war, so to speak on us who live in these this type of housing.  I guess, I am just going to sit back, and just see what will happen next.  This may spark a war on landlords like the one who owns this crappy park to clean up or have eminent domain waged upon them as the talk seems to be stemming towards.  The only problem is the owner of my area, if you shove, he shoves harder and usually declared a personal war on individuals in his path.  He is a spoiled kid who has been given pretty much anything and when someone plays in his cornflakes or sandbox, he becomes a hammer and makes life miserable for us who live in his areas.  This news story about the kids in the dog kennel has really started something and I think that now the city officials have had their eyes opened to the fact that their fair town is not a perfect utopia like they thought is was.  The city officials have blinders on around here and do not see the huge influx of drugs and distribution that we have here.  It really is not safe here, especially after dark and I am noticing that not a lot of people go out after dark anymore.  We also had a murder here last week, a stabbing attributed to drugs, so I think the community is on edge. The issue is, this is nothing new at all for this community.  I see it here all the time.  In fact, there is a single woman with kids living in the crappy unit behind me, and it is just like the place that was busted Monday night.  Junk laying around, garbage strewn about, as she will not pick up the garbage at all or even take it to the garbage.  I refuse to pick anything up anymore.  I used to pick up around here, but since the snit with the owner, earlier this year, I quit picking up and mowing around the lot.  Its his problem anymore.  This community for some reason, always has blinders on, it wants to be a utopia, but with new people trying to move here from all over for jobs, which we do not have, these new immigrants bring with them the ills of the social world with them.

I had someone make a comment, which I did not post.  She told me that she did not want to read of troubles of the area that I live in.  Well my dear, I am afraid that where I live, we have urban troubles and though unfortunate, I will post things about the area I live in.  It is not perfect, it is basically a slum in a rural community that seems to be perfect.  Its not, I assure you, but like my blog says, living and making it the best I can.  I am sorry that I cannot bring a lot of happy simple living to my blog, as I can't.  I am extremely poor, and when you are poor, you are given an area in which to live that is affordable.  The particulars of my area is the fact that this is the home of Union Pacific Railroad, and it is the hub of the rail yards.  And since we have had this here since the railroad was built in the late 1860's, it has been a town of ill repute, and of gouging for your money.  The cost to live in this community is 25% higher than any other community in the state, even the large urban areas of Omaha and Lincoln.  The rents are equal to the cities, and the cost of groceries here, especially meat is mind boggling to say the least.  Will this ever get solved,  no it will not, in fact it will get worse, with worse things coming into the picture like the child abuse incident we had Monday night. With people not being able to afford better conditions, with landlords praying upon people who are lower income, and unable to afford better things because of no work or medical issues which you cannot qualify because you cannot pass a credit check or a background check, which is what this community does, and then this follows you all over town to everyone, as gossip is slung here like mud and shit.
So I really do not have a answer as to this.  I know that this is all over the country, not just here, but everywhere.  I just do not want people who read this blog to think that I have a utopia world here, I don't.  It is a hillbilly hell here.  And again, if you do not like the blog, then please do not read it.  When I started the blog, it was meant for people who live in conditions like me, on how to live and coupe with the conditions.  I am  not an expert at all, but when you live in parks such as I do, it is a different world, different from a home or neighborhood, though, homes and neighborhoods have problems too, but when it is a trailer park, you are sort of in a collective, with generally an owner who is an idiot and doesn't care about anything but money, and puts the population of ill repute in these parks. And you are at the mercy of it as there really isn't any place to move that is better than the place you are in now. And forget about going to the city officials, as this has been done in the past with everything falling on deaf ears, but since this abuse case has gotten national attention, this may well be the straw which broke the camel's back, but to what extent if anything gets done.  I am just afraid that it may target innocent people, the elderly and disabled who live in trailers as all rotten and now you will pay for your habitation in these units through harassment and intimidation from officials.

I am also going to take a look at the blog in general.  Again, I do not live in rural, beautiful area where I have farmland, animals and a lovely atmosphere in which to post photos of.  I have tons of farmland around me within a few miles, but I cannot just get in the car or walk too much to post photos.  I wish I could, but with the price of gas, I cannot just get in the car and drive around without having somewhere to go. I cannot afford gas as a liberal expense to bring things to you. I wish I could.  This year in general, has been a trying, and ill gotten year.  I have many things going on, with only me doing it.  I do not have family in which to ask for help, and to get help from outside sources here is a recipe for disaster as again, the town gossips and you don't know if you may end up in jail or some kind of trouble with officials.  This community dwells on starting trouble and taking it too far.  I cannot remember if I ever mentioned this or not, but when I was doing my herb sales at the farmers market last year, I damn near got into trouble with cops as I had brought some culinary mushrooms with me that I was growing at home, they were Shitaki mushrooms along with some other Japanese culinary mushrooms for cooking and medicinal use and some idiot who went through the market, told the cops who make their presence known came over and told me that someone came over to them and told them  I had drug  mushrooms and was selling them.  Boy, I was pissed and so was the market director, who came to my rescue.  I also had dried herbs there and they thought  the containers were pot.  This is what this community is as a whole and the mind set.

So I will sit back the rest of this week and take in what is going on.  On the home front, D and I are getting ready to re finish floors, starting with the front bedroom, and smoothing out the rough spots and then I am applying several coats of poly floor paint and then bringing my large area rugs from the storage garage and then finish painting the walls and just fixing up things to make it more home-y.  I am hoping that this helps me cope with all of the ills.

I want to again, thank all of you who have followed this blog.  I love all of you, and respect your advice and opinions.  And I just want to try to bring better things to you, hopefully the next year with a better blog.  I am not a professional blogger, just a human trying to exist in a rough time.

Love and Hugs to all.

I'm Ready for my Close-up, Mr. DeVille

Good Evening Everyone,

I am so sorry for not getting back blogging.  It seems that by the time I finish up with clean-up around the house, I come in the house, totally exhausted, and quite sore, and a horridly painful spine, and then too tired to blog, I crash on the couch and fall asleep until about 5 am, then the dog has to go out and I get the paper and then I may crash back for an hour or so, then up and at em' again.  I am also feeling like not blogging,  it is dull here, not much happening, and since gardening is over.  I just sit'in on my butt, but I'm working inside the house, which it seems to me, I'm not getting anywhere.

Today, I had to take D to his pain management doctor in Kearney, which is about 100 miles to the east of me.  They did another round of pretty painful injections with a spine needle that no one would ever get next to me with one.  They only manage spine and leg pain for about 3-4 days then its back to chronic pain again and pain meds.  I am just so upset that there really isn't anything being done, and what is being done now has come way too late in the game to even manage or cure the problem in the first place.  Almost 3 years coming up and it was only this January that the company even did an MRI in the first place. Then the pain management didn't begin until this June, and now its going to be the 1st of November and pretty much its back to square one again.  I am at a loss now.  Welcome to the crappy world of work comp, (or lack of ).

While I was waiting for D to get back into the observation room,  on the news I heard about 4 kids being in a trailer from my hometown that were kept in a dog kennel.  Well, gee, we made the national news again!  Such a nice town that I live in, NOT!
I think that with all that is going on in the world, and now this sucky town that I live in, is really getting on my nerves.  Where I live in this trailer park, with the druggies, alcoholics, and other social ills, that come with the image of trailers and trailer parks, this will really put a black eye on the community.  This morning, while looking at blogs and the weather, the radio personalities were talking about how this town rivals the drug problems that pretty large, urban area are dealing with,  DUH!  Its been like this for several years now, and is getting worse each day.  I will bet that this child abuse case is connected with drugs or liquor.  Seems that parents want the dope and booze more than taking care of kids and home.  This case will also put a black eye on trailers even worse than it is now.  Remember back last year the problems we were having with the cops here and the trailer park image he had with all of us living here.

I sometimes feel like the world comes crashing down upon your head and you don't even have a beanie hat to protect you. It seems that you just cannot get a footing and hang on to the rope for dear life.  Ilene,  I'm ranting today, and I am also very tired from the drive to and from the Doctor's office.  I don't do driving very well anymore.  I don't enjoy it like I did when I was young and foolish and would go where angels feared to tread, mainly in terrible urban areas when I drove truck with D. Some of the most dangerous and gang riddled areas and that was in the 70's.  I know now it is 100% worse.  Calgon, take me away.........

Anyway,  I am starting to get cross-eyed at the screen, and I cannot see the letters on the keyboard.  I think that I will quit for the night, fix a soothing cup of herbal tea and rest.  Maybe the world will look better tomorrow.  Probably not, but we can wish, can't we?