Added some photos

Good Evening Everyone,

D just found my USB cable and I have been adding some photos to the blog.  Pretty soon, I will change the look and do something different.  I want to add more kitty photos and such, but for now, I posted the house and the garden and the cat's house, yes, I said cat's house.  The cat's have their OWN house, complete with outdoor run, and A/C, with a three level sleeping shelves and vinyl flooring to keep clean. I told D when he got done with the cat kennel, that I wanted to stay there.... (rolling eyes)*

I am going to try to get back to my blog and blogging, and not the negative.  I started going to  a support group for families that are caregivers for dementia and Alzheimer's patients and nursing home residents.  I was nervous to go to this group, number one, I am somewhat a solitary creature and have some social anxiety . But when I got there, I was welcome, and the founder of the group, a woman who started this group clear back in 1979, when no one knew what Alzheimer's was, even the doctor's.  This group helps give you ideas to cope, and how to handle the patient and the caregiver.  I will see how this goes.  This group meets every 2nd and 4th Mondays each month.  I will try to get to each meeting.   I will post how it goes.

I just want to take time to thank all of you for your support through this very difficult time in my life.  It has been a rough rodeo, and I am not done yet, but I was told by my support group to get on with my life, and pick up what I was doing and make time for me and me alone, no matter who gets mad or what.  It is something that has to be done.  So I will be changing the blog, so please bear with me when I start changing it and hope that I do not eject the blog into the purgatory of blogs.  I so want to get back to what I want to do, and I do not want to lose what people I have to a crappy, sad, negative blog.  So, onward and upward and changes are in the wind soon.

I will close for now and get ready to rest and get some sleep, the last few nights have been rough, and we have had some thunderstorms that have been rough and noisy and not much sleep and a lot of stress.  I will try to work on the blog and update it so it looks better.

Love and Hugs to All

When it rains, it pours

Good Afternoon Everyone,
I start this post Sat, July 6th.

Well, it has been a roller coaster here. Its not getting better, either which way it goes.  I hate it when this is all that goes on, just a repeat of yesterday, like the movie, "Groundhog Day".
My Dad did a stupid, and I mean stupid thing on the 4th of July.  He went out in the yard to try to water something in the front flowerbed, and his left leg, the weak one, got tangled up in the hose and he went down and broke the top of his hip bone.  I am just furious, and my mother is flipping out as usual.
The Orthopedic surgeon did surgery yesterday afternoon and pinned the hip and ran a rod down into the leg to the knee to stabilize it.  I went this morning to see him, he is dazed, and somewhat out of it.
I have no idea what to do now.  I have started proceedings for  his veteran benefits.  I am angry that this was not done years ago.  But I cannot change things now.  When I went up to the hospital, I took the chance for him to sign these papers to start his VA nursing home application.  I wanted it signed, as if something happens, these papers are signed, and maybe I can get benefits for mom.  I am not sure, as the VA is being cut, but I am going to try.

So, its not been very good at all, and to top it all off, D and I just have come home from the vet's office this afternoon,  as I had to put one of my young cats to sleep.  She got sick last week, and did not recover, and had a terrible fever of over 105* which is bad, and we had blood work done, and she tested positive for Leukemia, and would not make a recovery.  D is very upset, I am upset, and I cannot make any more decisions anymore for a while.  I know next week, I have to make decisions, but at the moment I cannot do anymore.  I am tapped out.

I do not think that anything will end.  It just gets worse each and every day.  The stress is unbelievable, and I cannot catch a break.  My Dad was getting bull headed and would not listen to me, or anyone, he just thought that he could go do what he used to do and now he has put me in a terrible position, something that I just do not think that I can do.  He did not even think of what strain it would be and now, its just terrible.  I am so angry, so very angry of the stress that this is put upon me.  My mom is being loopy now, and is giving me problems as to what is going on and I am waiting for the shoe to drop on her.  I have tried to get help, but I cannot, its just a mess, and with all of this Obama care crap, this medical system is totally busted, and I am not kidding when I say that.  No one knows what will go on, no one knows what will happen.  That is where its at, at the present time.

I so want to work on my house.  I have not been able to even do much at my home, as I am running after my parents even more now , and now, more paperwork and some how find it to put Dad in the VA home in Grand Island, which is 140 miles away.
I am shocked that my garden is doing very well.  The one thing that IS doing OK.  It will be a very late garden, but it is growing and looking very good.
D ended up buying a used John Deere lawn tractor.  The lawn here is much larger than what I had at the trailer.  It would take 3 hours to mow with the lawn mower, and now with this JD, it takes just a little over an hour now.  And we are not totally pooped out when we mow.  I am still learning how to drive it and handle it, but I need to gain my confidence, which right now, I do not have much of, considering what has been going on.

I am looking back at my blogging, and for the last 6 months, its been totally caca, (sh*t).  I am so sad, angry that I cannot blog about anything else but bad things.  Does any of this ever go away.  Does anything ever get better?  I question anything anymore, as no one at this point in time can tell me anything, or even help.

July 10th
Have Dad back into the original care center he was at.  He is so very sorry for what he has done, and I just cannot have the nerve to chew on him.  It does not make anything better, only worse.  I just told him last night when I went to see him that he needs to quit feeling sorry for himself and that he needs to get going and heal and get better.  It does no good to moop around. So I told him that if he wants to get home again, he needs to do his physical therapy and continue like he did before when he had his strokes, and he did well, so he needs to do it again.  He only has 24 days of nursing home care here, from Medicare, and then I have to send him to the Grand Island VA care center to finish out his physical therapy.  I have to go this afternoon and pick up papers from his PC physician and then get them over to the VA central office to send in.  I am switching over to the VA medical system for both Mom and him.  I may get better results than I have been getting.  I am not sure of what cuts have been made but I am going to try anyway.  I have no other choices in the matter.  As I have mentioned, the new Obamacare system is totally a train wreck and no one knows what is going on, what will happen or how much.  Nothing can be figured out and there are so many rules and regulations that no one can keep track of it.  It is truly a train wreck now.

Now, a little bit of good news, my garden produced my first Zucchini and yellow squash.  I am going to fix them with dinner tonight.  I am starting to see small tomatoes, and some very tiny cucumbers also. Its just been a total bummer of a summer, if I say so myself.  I am trying to see the positive and bright side. D added a bed just to the west of my raised garden bed for my Strawberry plants and then the other side will be my herb bed.  The herbs will be hopefully on next years agenda, definitely not this year. I have to thin out my Walking onions in the ghetto buckets.  The buckets are getting thin and brittle and I need to place them somewhere this fall.  I am getting rolled eyes as to having another raised bed done, but it would be nice, as next year I am hoping for a calmer beginning, can't say I will have but I am hoping.

Well,  I am going to try again to have better news, and more things to tell as to what we are doing at the new home.  Still have not heard from the moron owner, and so it is just left until something comes up or contact is made.
We have been adding shelving to the garage to put my canning supplies up and out of the road. I have three shelves up now, that are eight feet long, and its holding all of my canners and  my dehydrating supplies up now.  Its nice as you can get around a little now.  I still have bags and boxes to go through.  I am going through clothing and have a box set up for the thrift shop, and then the trash.  I am just closing my eyes and throwing now.
Sometime later, I am going to have our heat/air guy come out and give me a quote to run a gas line to the garage for the gas stove so I can do my canning in the garage.  The gas line is close to the garage and possibly can be run under the house to the garage.  It would be nice as I would not heat up the house in summer.  Another "we will see" projects.

Well, I think that I have probably ruined the day, but I am still here, still hanging on, and still trying to be positive.  I am hoping it will quiet down, and I can start to heal my soul and slow down.
Until the next blog post, all of you please take care, enjoy the time and the day, and have a wonderful upcoming weekend.

Love and Hugs


 

Good Morning Everyone,

This morning, as I sit in my office/sewing room overlooking the pasture to the west, having a cup of tea, and trying to get my bearings to start the day, I had the wonderful pleasure to see a deer, a doe, trot just behind the house.  She was heading toward I-80 to the north of me, which I am just a half mile away.  Then, something startled her, and she bounced back to the south on a dead run. We do have roads to the south and north, and deer get hit on these roads as well as I-80.  The deer are very thick around here.  But hopefully, she got across the road and did not encounter a car or truck...this time.

It has been busy here, and stressful, same crap, different day now.  I am now trying to get through boxes, and put things away, sorting through things again, and either throwing away, or donating.  I have not been able to get too much done.  My parents have been a pain, this last week.  My dad, decided that he wanted the keys to the car and that he was going to start driving, he told me yesterday.  I went to run a few errands and dropped off the errands to their house, and he immediately jumped in my face about him driving himself around.  I blew my top and told he he could not, that his drivers license has been suspended
because he has had three strokes, and he cannot even see over the steering wheel, he is so crippled over and his body collapsed down.  He was mad as I confronted him and that I was not going to tell him what to do, and I told him that if he even thought about getting in the car, that I would have him stopped and then he would be finished.  He is not speaking to me, which I really don't care at all.  Too bad, so sad.
I had to really get crappy with them yesterday, and I told them that if this is the way that they would like to act that I would be making decisions to place them in assisted living and sell the house.  If they wanted to have someone treat them like juveniles then, I would do so.  They sort of quieted down and I have not heard anything more out of them

I feel like I am going mad, and I am now in the resentment stage of the game.  I have requested help from the VA office, and this is in the works.  I am asking for respite care also, so I can have a break. At this point in the game, I am at this moment, truly sorry for everything that I have done for them, both medically and physically.  I am exhausted, both mentally and physically and to try to find help here is almost impossible.  We just do not have resources.  We do, but most is only available to people who have lots of money and can pay for services. People like me just are not given options.  I am hoping that the VA will be able to help me a little, especially with the medications.  One of dad's med is $274, and D had to pay for that the last time, as this was the co-pay on the med.  Its one that dad has to have.  Its the stroke med and it is needed.

This sky yesterday morning  turned a very sickening yellow/orange color yesterday.  It is from the fires in Colorado, and it was almost apocalyptic in its looks.  Yesterday, when I called the home health nurse about dad, she told me that yesterday morning, when the sky turned the colors it did, that all of the sudden, patients who her caregivers were taking care of, suddenly started acting funny, like dad, and that they were having problems with a number of clients.  This morning, the sky is turning the same color....I hope I do not have a repeat of yesterday with my parents.

My garden is growing now.  I shudder when we have storms roll through, since they have hail in them.  If it gets hailed out, I am not going to garden this year at all.  I will just go to farmers market and leave it at that. 
I am getting ready to go to get my food paks that I purchase from Prairieland foods.  This is my savings for groceries and I have been pleased with their products.  Earlier this week, I fixed a huge chicken breast that I purchased from Prairieland and it was just awesome.  These breasts were huge.  They looked like turkey breasts, but they baked up so good, and I did not need to baste them at all.  I put this one in a roaster and left it to bake most of the day, and it was just delicious.  It makes awesome sandwiches also. 

Well, I need to get ready to go and get my grocery paks. Then hopefully home, and get to unloading some boxes today.  I hope that I do not have any issues so I can get some work done.  Hopefully.....
I wish everyone a wonderful, peaceful weekend.

Hugs and Love

Good Evening Everyone,

Started June 1
Well,  D and I got home from working on the old trailer.  We are in the process of painting and doing some light repairs.  I know everyone has asked why we are fixing and painting, long story short, my attorney felt it was somewhat necessary to elevate any problems with the moron owner, and we felt that since we had lived there, it needed to be fixed.  Some people came by this afternoon, looking at several trailers that are now empty in the park, and they stopped by our trailer, and asked if it was available, and I told them yes, and we showed them what we were doing.  They liked the trailer and went back to speak with the morons, but I do not know if they got it or not.  I paid another half month's rent so we could finish by the 15th of this month.  We just cannot move and do things like we used to, and at the end of the day, between working at the old place and running after my parents, I am beat, and tired. Update: Carpet will be laid on Tuesday, the 11th.  I will send keys to the morons on Wednesday by certified letter and be done with it.

I am not sure of my parents situation at the moment.  My Dad is supposed to be released June 10th back home.  I have to go and see our local Area on the Aging, to see if I can locate someone who comes in and does light cooking duties, like I used to do.  I just cannot do any cooking and handling the demands that they want and need.  I will have Home Health come in with a nurse to check on Dad, I will just have to see how this goes.  They are just so very demanding of my time, and I am in a position that I cannot stretch myself anymore with my life and theirs.  They have become so very clingy now, and they are ill-tempered between themselves, Mom is ok on some days, but yesterday, she had a melt down on me and said that she did not want Dad, home, and that she was not going to live like that.  She has to have these meltdowns on me when I am exhausted and tired, and then I become ill tempered and the fight is on.  I just cannot get answers, or help, and I am not feeling well.  I am hoping that when we get done with the trailer, things will be better since we will not be running around all the time.  I do know that I will have to set boundary lines up, as if not, I will be spending my whole summer, and my life, running for them. Update:  Since the trailer is done and we are done moving, things have calmed down somewhat.

The weather here has been weird.  I still do not have my garden in.  Its been very chilly at night here, and I just have not had time either.  I am going to try to set in my plants Sunday, and cover them with greenhouse plastic, and hope for the best.  I have tried to start cucumbers and lost some due to the chilly air.  I have a heat mat, but they fall over and die after a few days.  The area nurseries we have around here have had nothing left for the garden season.  It was picked over because of the weather and there is nothing left but crap, which I just will not buy.  I have not even looked at plants for color for the house.  I guess I am just not in the mood, because of everything that has been going on, too much stress and little time to enjoy anything.   I am planning on taking Sunday off from working at the trailer to go grocery shopping and look for some ornamental plants for some pots here at my house, and maybe a few for the folks, and that's about it.  I do not have time to go and water their yard and my yard at the same time. Update- I just put in some of my garden tomatoes and peppers Monday night.  Really late isn't it?  I am going to cover them with greenhouse plastic for a while until this weather gets out of its bi-polar mood.  Its worse than my mother's mood! I am afraid that this years garden will be nothing great or perfect.  My raised garden bed is 13 feet by 16.5 feet. We have to go and get chicken wire fencing to keep the rabbits out or that will be gone too.

I have been trying to read every one's blogs to keep up with all of you.  I miss blogging, which is one of my stress breakers.  I have been getting back into the habit of having my tea or coffee in the morning and visiting all of you and see what is going on in your world.  It sure helps me to break the stress, it really does.

June 5th.
Well, I'm still trying to put a post together.  It was a little calmer today, I took my mom to my hairdresser, to get her hair done.  I thought I would have a meltdown with her, as she got out of the car and then balked going in. My hairdresser is very kind and came out and talked to mom and coaxed her in, telling her she needed her hair done, and was gentle with her and we finally got her in.. She is getting house bound and is difficult to take out.  When we got done, I drove her out to the new house, and she just did not know where we were at, and did not know much of anything.  Very sad.

I am hoping to go shopping sometime this week, I need to get a new USB cable,  I cannot find my old one.  I have a reader suggest plugging in with something else, but I have a cheap camera and I cannot do that with this el cheapo.  I am hoping that I will get a better camera this fall.  Maybe.....

The trees we transplanted from the old trailer to the new house are doing well, except the ornamental pear, unfortunately, when we dug it up, some of the roots were cut, and it is struggling to snap out of its shock.  D got some liquid hormone and B-12 stuff that you mix in water.  I am giving this to the tree twice a week.  It is very concentrated stuff.  One tiny bottle about 1 oz makes 100 gallons.  It has really helps everything else.  My grape vine my neighbor gave me is snapping out of its shock, and my raspberry bushes are coming out as well.  The tree will be touch and go, and as I have said, I would rather it die here than at the moron's park as no one would take care of it anyway.  The nursery told us that it will be droopy most of the summer, and we'll have to see next spring how it has done.

Well, its 12:38 am here on Saturday morning.  I cannot sleep, and a small thunderstorm is coming in from the west.  Its lightening and thundering a little.  I have problems sleeping here yet.  I am just not used to the house or the area.  Its so quiet here and its spooky around here at night,  very little lights around except for yard lights from some of the homes.  I am very cautious when I have to let the dog out, as we have the typical night creatures roaming around.  We have a den of skunks in the pasture behind us, and as long as they do not get too close, we will be ok, but if they get close or have a sick one in the bunch, it will be gone.  We are having an early rabies season here, so I am just watching and hoping we do not have an encounter.

Well,  I had better get back to bed, or stay up and read a little, and then see if I can get back to sleep.  I have be so tired, that I cannot sleep.  It will get better, I hope soon.
I wish everyone a wonderful weekend, and take care.

Love and Hugs

Morning in the New Neighborhood

Good Morning Everyone,

Thursday, May 16th.

Well, I am at the computer in my sewing room/office this morning, where I look out over the pasture.  It is cloudy this morning, even had a tiny rain shower move over for a few minutes, just enough to make the sidewalks wet and as it heats up, will make the humidity go up today, and make some thunderstorms bloom up this afternoon.

We are still moving small stuff.  I have had some issues with my parents come up that required me to stop and take care of.  My Dad had a tiny stroke Friday night and he was released back into the care center Tuesday.  He has tiny strokes that have been explained to me as strokes going nowhere.  They hit, cause temporary paralysis for a few hours and then show no damage on MRI's.  I also am going to have my attorney on Friday, go and have them sign over for Power of Attorney, so I can take care of and handle both of their affairs.  My parents have not set anything up for me which makes me angry and has left them and me in a bad position.  I have been after them for several years to take care of things, but they never would.  Now, its time to pay the fiddler and things are in a state of chaos.  I am navigating the Social Services paperwork and the people you work with are humiliating and degrading.  I have already tangled with one woman who talked down to me as if I was a child and I blew her butt.  I told her I was not one of her druggie, clients who does not know what is going on. She just was not sure how to handle this as she told me she has never been talked to like that before, and I told her, "well, its about time you were".  I told her she lives in a sugar-coated world of the government and knows nothing of the outside world or how it works.  She backed off and that was the end of the conversation.  I am having the care center where my dad is, help me to submit paperwork on Friday because of her, so I do not have to put up with her insults.

I hired someone to mow and trim the folk's yard.  I just cannot handle two households, including lawns.  It is getting better as we are not running as much, but it will be better, once we are done moving, and then finishing the old trailer and painting and re-carpeting the place.  We just get very tired in the late afternoon, and we are not young anymore to do what we used to do.  It will get done though, and will be finished.

About a week and a half ago, we had tragedy at my folk's home with several of their kitties.  This broke my heart, but we found out that they had a rouge possum, a very large male kill two of their kitties.  This creature literally shredded their bodies and ate them.  I knew raccoons did this, but had never encounter a possum doing this, but I do remember that they get into chickens.   When we found the beautiful kitty they had by the garage, we knew we had a rouge something lurking around.  So I set my traps and the next morning caught the murderous possum.   We then loaded up this rouge and took it out and shot it.  It had developed the taste of pets and needed to be destroyed and it was.  Come to find out, the stupid neighbors next to my parents were feeding them as they thought they were cute, I blew their butts out and told them to never feed wild creatures as this is what happens.  They have a two year old and I told them that this big possum would of went after their kid, as it was sick and developed a no-fear toward people.  They are stupid young kids who are in the druggie world and just did not think that wild animals do such things.  Real smart, arent' they.

I will try to post photos but at the moment, I cannot find my USB cable.  Its in a box somewhere, (sound familiar), and when I do, I will post some photos.
Right at the moment, I cannot think of anything else. I will re post later.

Monday, May 20.

Its been raining since Saturday afternoon.  We had some rough thunderstorms roll through, some places around us got very large hail at over 2 inches in diameter.  I am glad we didn't get that, but the air was very chilly so you knew we had hailstorms around.  It dropped the temps quite a bit and it was in the 50's. The wind blew around 60 mph and then later in the night, we had several more storms roll through and the lightening is pretty close and sharp.  I was up and could not sleep, the animals were nervous about the storms and being in a new place, it makes me not sure and uneasy.

Where we are at now, its dark, as we do not have much street lighting.  The front has street lights but the back is pure country, with the open pasture and so when I take the dog out at night, I have a flash light and I don't stay out too long.  I know we have critters, its just you do not know where the critters are at. Funny thing  is, we had critters where we did live also, so its not different, but its just more dark out here than I am used to.  We are going to put up our motion detector lights up soon, and it will make it a little better.

I could not sleep, so I am working on this post.  It is currently raining again.  I mowed the grass in the front Sunday afternoon, but my city grass cart was totally full when I finished, so I have to get another grass cart for the back.  Bummer.  The yard we have is large and with the rain we have been getting, its growing, This year, not much is going to get done.  I would like another raised garden bed, but that is not in the plans this year.  I would like to put in some dwarf fruit trees, but again, not this year.
Its supposed to rain most of this week, so we are hoping to get what we can moved and work at the old place and get it ready.  We have a plumbing problem that has come up so that needs to be fixed.  My attorney that is handling the moron owner is going to request an extension and I will pay extra for the extension.  We have come across a few things that need to be taken care of, so I guess if moron wants his trailer rent ready, he'll have to put up with the extension.

I still cannot find my USB cable, its in a  box and I am still searching.  I have a few photos I would like to post. I hate this when you move and everything is in boxes, even though you mark the boxes of contents, you still cannot find anything.  I got my china buffet put back together, with all of the contents, and did not break anything, which shocked me.  I am now in the process of washing things, towels, linens, and putting everything away.  I have good linens that I need to wash, and iron and put away, but that will be later.

We got NetFlix added to the TV.  Generally I am not a TV fan, but I enjoy movies, westerns, and the action adventure movies, so we got that, and I do enjoy it.  Its our entertainment and we do not go out so its been nice.  Lately, I have been unable to sit down and watch any TV period, with all that has been going on.  Just a few days ago, I got to the nursery's to get garden plants, which, by the was was pretty poor pickings, but I did get some things. Again, this year is going to be a year of unpredictable things going on, so I am not planning much of anything.

Well, its about 3:30 am on Monday, and I had better get a little sleep.  I will try to post more as I have time this week.

Hugs to All

A new view in a new home

Good Morning Everyone,

Well....I am currently in my new home, in my sewing/office room, having a cup of tea, looking through the window toward the southwest, out across an open field with the birds and the air filled with song, and to me, even though its just a pasture, its a grand, soul healing sight. One of my cats is on top of my computer desk, watching and waiting for a bird to fly into the window which they are flying a little more erratic around here than at my old  home, because there is more airspace around here, but its wonderful.  The air is filled with birdsong, with many birds I do not get to see in town much, red-winged Blackbirds, and field birds like Meadow Larks, and small birds that I need to dig out my bird book to identify.  Its the bird song I love, and it is truly soul healing to me.

I have more to move from the old place, its small stuff, shelves,  clothing, and lamps, etc,  and then we'll go back and clean, paint, and lay the carpet down.  We can only do so much each day, as I get so tired, between running loads from place to place, check on my parents, have a break or two, and then a few more loads and then quit for the day.  It is getting a little easier, but it will be like this until the end of the month.

I will get some photos, and do more posting as I can.  I just got the computer and phone up Friday, and got everything set up so its working, hopefully. (I won't be too loud when I say that).
I will also have to change my blog's wording too.  Where I am at is not a slum, but paradise.
Have a wonderful week.

Hugs and Love

Computer and Blogger issues

Good Evening Everyone,

I am not even going to apologise to everyone as I think everyone knows why I have been MIA for a while.  Between trying to move, and trying to take care of my parents, and take care of everyday life in general, and then throw in a glitch with blogger after I had my computer worked on after it crashed and my tech cleaned it out and finally figuring out what was wrong, it had something to do with the cookies with blogger and finally this morning, I figured it out.  I have been so tired and unable to think, that I just had to go to bed, rest and then early this morning, I got it figured out and I am back on board with Blogger.

My Dad got sick on us Monday night, and I had to place him  back in the hospital.  He has been not behaving, and not doing his nebulizer treatments, and has been difficult to try to feed and cook for. At first, he was great and was doing really good, but then, about a week or so ago, he started on being a stinker, which the doctor thinks it is from the stroke.   So, I had to make the decision to place him back into the care center, from the hospital,  where he may or may not try to get well and quit being a shit.  He was getting too hard for my mom to handle, and she is also hard to handle, so I did not need two shits making a big shit, so to speak, so between the doctor, the case manager at the hospital, they placed him, so I would not be on his radar and take his anger out on me.  We all agreed that he need more care and just placed the ball in his court and that was it.  I will see how he does, and just take it each and every day.  My mom is somewhat easier to handle now, since she does not have to put up with his child-like antics, she has her days, but she is easy to do meals for and is happy, as she still can do embroidered quilts, which she is working on and it keeps her busy.  I am amazed that with some of her mental capabilities, she can still sew her quilt tops, and the stitching is perfect, but with other things, she is a ding-bat, but I love her and my dad and I will just be thankful for each day I have,  perfect or not and another day to have the strength and  fight and be glad.

In all of this, I am slowly moving things.  The weather has been a mixed bag of snow, cold, rain, icy, and hot.  Over the weekend, we got the appliances moved, and a few things,  and then we stop and take breaks, as we are not young and cannot move like we used to.The weather doesn't help.  It has been so blasted cold and it is impossible to move things when you have several inches of snow on the ground.   The house is coming together, I am still in a daze as to the blessing of finding a nice home, and everything that we need.  I have no need for anything else in my life but my gardens, and a nice, comfortable home to be able to live in after taking care of my parents during the day.  This home is my respite, and my sanity and I will enjoy every bit of it, each and every day.

I will try to get back on track and do posts about my experiences with the health care system that I have been dealing with.  I will try to work on this in the next month or so.  Tomorrow, the computer will be down as I am moving it out to the new house and cable will be out there early tomorrow morning so I will start to get that set up.  I will hopefully be up and running soon.

I am starting to feel somewhat better.  I went to my massage therapist, and has a session with her, and she started me on several  herbal supplements  and a natural relaxer and I have found that it has helped me greatly.  I will post about this when I see that it is truly helping me and I will pass this on to all of you.  The stress that I have been under, I would not wish upon anyone, but when I put out my hand and asked for help, it has been there, from  many people, who has offered whatever they could, so I could keep my sanity.  I think that I have mentioned before, I have no friends here.  I have not met like-minded people that I could share things with, but when I started navigating the health care area, and being introduced to the people who work behind the scenes, helping people steer into the right directions when handling life changing decisions.  Through this, I have had some of my faith restored  in man, through these wonderful, people, who have been placed in my life to make decisions not by myself. I have been blessed many times, even though going through the stress was not pleasant and sometimes it has been too much, but it has been smoothing out and the road not so rocky.

I have to catch up on everyone's blogs.  I have not been able to do so, so I will try to do that and this will help me to relax and enjoy everyone and their going's on.
I just also want to again, thank all of you for your messages of hope, blessings, love, good karma, and prayers.  I know that you all care, and at night, I ask for blessings, prayers, karma and good thoughts for all of you.  This world is tough and is getting tougher, and we need more love and care in the world,  I feel so blessed to know all of you, from around the world, I am truly so thankful for all of you.  I love the sharing, caring that goes on here, and through all of you, I am getting my strength back to handle the next day. 

Well,  like FlowerLady says, "its time to get horizontal", and that is what I am going to do.  I generally read for a while and then I sleep better.  I have been sleeping almost a full 12 hours, and sometimes I catch a little half hour nap, and then I am off and running.  I am getting better as I do not need to sleep as much the last few days, I am sure its from the supplements and suggestions from my massage therapist.  She is a peach too.

Well,  I will try to get back online in a few days, hopefully without any glitches, and I wish everyone a wonderful upcoming weekend, and full of gardening, and just general enjoyment of life.

Hugs and Love to All